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Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
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2:07 pm - A random post
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I still read LJ daily, even if I don't post often anymore.
Things are afoot and keeping me busy! LOL
So I have a random thing to share....
Does anyone want in on a flip flop pyramid?
My BFF from high school sent me a letter in the mail. I almost threw it out but the more I thought about it, the more interested I became.
Basically, you get this paper and there's 2 names on the list, with their address and shoe size. Then there is an identical form that is blank. You go buy a pair of flip flops for the person in the #1 spot and mail it to them. Then on the blank form you put the person who was #2 and put them in the #1 slot, and write yourself in the #2 spot. Then send to 6 of your friends. So basically, you buy 1 pair of flip flops and get 36 in return (assuming no one breaks the chain), from all over the place... you could get some really wild shoes since you really don't know who is sending them to you...lol. I like getting surprises in the mail! :)
Well, I don't really know 6 people who would do this. So I figured I'd ask.... anyone want some flip flops? LOL. I have no idea what I'd do with 36 pairs, but I could donate a bunch to charity I suppose and keep my favs. I figure asking is better than randomly mailing, I'm more likely to get people who keep it going instead of throwing it away (like I almost did).
Comments screened, cause if you are interested, you have to tell me your address! :)
current mood:  amused
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-Tempt me-
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| Friday, May 29th, 2009
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3:40 pm - o.o
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It's like WWIII next door.
Doors slamming, the guy yelling "WHORE! SLUT! YOU DUMB BITCH!"
This guy seriously needs anger management. This isn't the first time, nor the first person.
I wish they'd move. Or at least clean up their yard and shut up. The neighborhood is so peaceful when they go out of town.
current mood:  irritated
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| Tuesday, May 26th, 2009
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11:52 pm - la la
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| Thursday, May 14th, 2009
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4:31 pm - selling stuff
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Hey, I'm selling my costumes. Make me an offer :) I can provide photos if you want. If no one wants them I will probably have to throw them away. I've got to make room to finish the basement.
Ouka from .hack (fur and white bikini! I don't think I have the wig anymore though)
kururu from bottle fairy... just the dress
sasami from tenchi (kimono and pants)
selphie dress
3rd mix emi top
white hospital looking gown... rakka from haibane renmei (wing birthing scene)
Chiaki's jacket and skirt (niea_7)
pink fairy outfit (skirt and top, healing fairy from zelda cartoon)
miwako, orange top from the manga... here's a photo... bad pic of me though, sorry. lol
bleach hakama and kimonos
I've also got a long dark brown wig I was going to use for princess garnet
a shoulder length black wig (it has a couple of highlights) that I used for Amila
pink yachiru wig
blue chin length bob I used for rei ayanami
orange chin length bob
long dark blonde wig w/ bangs
blonde short wig for Yui from fushigi yuugi (the nice one, not the cheap bowl cut one)
I probably have more, but that's it for now.
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-7 Temptations | Tempt me-
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| Tuesday, May 12th, 2009
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8:42 am - I'm pissed at Maryann Spicer
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Or is it Marianne Spicer? Either way, I don't care. I have NO idea who she is. I just know that every day, ever since I got this phone number in 2005, I get calls for her. Angry calls. I think a lot of them are creditors. I also get automated calls from Rite Aid about her prescriptions. I used to just tell them it's a wrong number but lately I've been more proactive about getting this number REMOVED from their lists because it's just getting worse.
Usually the people apologize and tell me they'll remove the number, but today it was different.
Today, the woman (who wouldn't tell me what company she was from, just her first name) got pissy with me. She claimed she's left messages for Marianne, with a person, before. I've gotten answering machine messages, but why would Andy or I take a message for this woman? We have no idea who she is? Then this creditor or whoever she is went on to tell me that she actually TALKED to Marianne in march. At this number.
Um. No, I don't think so. Unless Marianne broke into my house to use my phone, you did NOT talk to her. So then she got nasty with me when I tried to tell her that there's no way that could have happened. She kept asking me, "Well do you KNOW her?" And I'm like, no, I've told you, I have no idea who she is! I've had this number for 4 years!" and then she'd go back to harping on the fact that she supposedly (according to her notes) talked to this woman at my number 2 months ago.
I told her my name, I told her my phone number (to verify she didn't misdial or something, maybe Marianne is 1 digit off my number?), told her how long I've lived here and she treated me like I was frikkin Mariann owing her a gazillion dollars and lying about my name, etc. Finally she said she'd check into removing my number when I got really firm and insistent.
This is never going to end is it? I'd love to know who this Marianne is and what she did... and most importantly, how to tell the creditors where to find her so they leave me alone.
current mood:  aggravated
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-3 Temptations | Tempt me-
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| Sunday, May 3rd, 2009
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11:06 pm - update...
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Ok, wow. So I heard a noise, and peeked out the window and saw all the flashlights... that's why the police knocked on our door, they have to use our yard to get to the spot (we're an end unit), so I went upstairs to look out the back window... and they are set up about 30 feet off our property line. If it wasn't raining I would have made Andy mow the lawn and he would have seen it clearly. It's right about where we dump the clippings of grass and weeds. The trees are blocking so I can't tell if it's an adult or child or anything... but I can hear the generator through closed windows and the lights are bright as day....
still no idea what happened or anything. I just really hope it wasn't any of the neighborhood kids or anything.
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-Tempt me-
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10:22 pm - creeped out
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So, it's just after 10pm... the doorbell rings. I send my husband to get it because who is coming to the house this late?
It's a police officer. Asking if we have children. We tell him yes, an 18 month old.
He then tells us that someone got hurt in the "woods" behind our house. (basically, a drainage creek with a few feet of trees on either side). He asks if we know anything about it.
When we tell him no (and are really confused) he tells us that the medical examiner is on the way and they will be taking the body out in a body bag and he wanted to warn us so as not to freak out any kids that might be here (so the kids don't see the remains I guess).
I'm so creeped out right now.
current mood:  discontent
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| Saturday, May 2nd, 2009
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6:41 pm - I'm not trying to be insensitive here....
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...but can can someone please educate me on what the BFD the swine flu is? Don't more people die from the regular flu each year? So why all the hysteria, closed schools, etc? You don't see them closing schools when the regular flu goes around.
current mood:  confused
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-9 Temptations | Tempt me-
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| Thursday, April 30th, 2009
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3:46 pm - selling some more stuff....
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Is anybody interested in some anime dvds?
evangelion box set + 2 eva movies
trigun box set
record of lodoss war box set
record of lodoss war: chronicles of the heroic knight box set
bastard
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-4 Temptations | Tempt me-
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| Wednesday, April 29th, 2009
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5:27 pm - magazines
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Does anyone get a magazine subscription? Preferably a fashion-related one, with lots of photos of people (even ads). Or even one with glamourous portraits of celebrities. But not like decorating magazines or the magazines with the crazy snapshots of famous people looking fat or shopping and stuff. I mean like, art-director/photographer work.
If so, and you just toss them in the trash/recycling bin when you are done, would you consider sending them to me? I want to tear out the photos for a personal project. I promise to recycle the rest. I was going to buy some but I can't bring myself to buy magazines with no intention of reading any of the articles, especially when my play money is pretty much nil.
Please???
current mood:  creative
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| Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
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8:56 pm - cats on mars?
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So I totally forgot ALL about cats on mars. I haven't visited it in years, like probably 4? But this week I keep getting all these PM notifications. I'm not about to go over there to check it out because I honestly don't care. But what's up with all the PMs? Ok, I guess if I'm curious that means I must care a little, but not enough to actually log in to find out what they say. It's probably some virus ridden link anyway.
current mood:  curious
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| Friday, April 24th, 2009
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8:49 am - Saturday
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I know that everybody probably already has plans for tomorrow, but just in case....
I'm attending a photographer get together in Fell's Point at 9am. Anyone with any kind of interest in photography is welcome, you don't ned to be a pro, you don't need to have mastered your camera, you can shoot on auto... you just need to love photography! We've got a few models lined up and we're just going to hang out, shoot, and talk photography for a couple of hours. It should be fun!
current mood:  artistic
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| Sunday, April 19th, 2009
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10:11 pm - oh.
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| Monday, April 13th, 2009
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5:12 pm - a shot in the dark
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Has anyone here ever filed a maryland personal property tax return? I am soooo confused.
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| Saturday, April 11th, 2009
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8:56 pm - treading water
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Had my follow up ultrasound today. The cyst is smaller, so YAY. That is a HUGE sigh of relief. Considering my phone conversation with the doctor 6 weeks ago mostly involved talks of surgery and meds, I am sooooo happy to hear this. It's now barely 1 cm, which means it's a do-nothing cyst.
My body has always been extra cysty. Stupid body.
Kaylee is fighting a cold which means she is really snotty. I'm trying to teach her to blow her nose but it's actually a tough skill to teach, especially to a toddler. And now I think I'm catching it. Sore throat, extra sleepy, achy. Oh, fun.
Kosher coke is awesome. It's made with sugar instead of corn syrup and it tastes so good without that syrupy aftertaste!
I'm washing diapers right now. I have some photos to edit and then I'm going to bed.
I wish I could go to Shore Leave. But it's during my OBX vacation. Again. I think I am cursed.
current mood:  blank
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| Thursday, April 9th, 2009
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1:59 pm - blah
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That's how I feel... just blah. Nothing. No motivation, nothing.
I think... I think it's more than just a funk. I wonder how long I should let it go?
I really thought I was ok. I got my period back and I was hopeful and I thought, ok, we'll just... do it again. Especially since I didn't even ovulate at all once the bleeding from the miscarriage stopped. And I KNOW it's irrational to think it would happen right away. I know that. But there I was armed with my ovulation prediction kit, and my mucinex, and everything.
But I got my period yesterday and I just feel so defeated. I should be 4 months pregnant right now, and I'm not. And I'm not ok with that. I mean, if you think about it, it's been 5 months since I got the IUD out and started really wanting another baby.
I'm tired to pretending to be happy. I'm lonely. I have no one to talk to. I take Kaylee to the library and all the other moms are there, but they are all friends and upper-class and it's like fucking 6th grade all over again where I'm the nerd in the cafeteria eating lunch alone because no one will talk to me or sit with me.
With this cycle being a bust, that means I won't even have a 2009 baby. I guess wanting a September baby and then actually getting one is just too good to be true.
Plus a menstrual cycle... it's so reminiscent of the miscarriage bleeding. It makes me think of it way too often.
I know I have a good life. I know I am lucky to have an amazing daughter. I try to focus on that, and to just be grateful for what I have. But I just feel so pathetic right now. Getting out of bed is a chore. Getting a shower is a chore. Cooking dinner is a chore. And forget housework. I let it all pile up and it's trashed in here. I just feel so fucking numb right now.
and to anyone out there thinking, "god, when is she going to get over it?".... fuck you.
And to my well meaning friends, I don't think I want to talk about this in person. I'm sick of crying, and talking about it will just make me cry and I just don't want to. I can do emails, I can do blogging... then I can communicate with those I love but still feel like I'm grieving in private without feeling awkward.
I go in on Saturday for my ultrasound for the cyst. I'm tying to tell myself that maybe it didn't happen for a reason. There is still a chance I'd need to get the cyst removed. But I don't like the thought of that either. I hate surgery.
I'm just fucking depressed about it all. I know I need to just pull myself up but I feel so damn helpless, like I just can't. Like there's this goddamn mountain in front of me that I'm somehow supposed to climb all alone.
I know it's not the end of the world. I know it. But that doesn't make me feel any better about it all.
Time will heal, blah blah blah. I'm tired of waiting.
current mood:  numb
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| Wednesday, April 8th, 2009
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1:27 am - being a total attention whore
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Check out this photo!! I'm so excited.
While at the workshop this weekend, Wende (our mentor) took quick portraits of everyone so we could all update our "about me" sections of our websites.
I have never, ever liked a photo of me before. I'm so thrilled with it! I really hope to be able to have my clients feel this way with images I take of them. This photo makes me feel pretty. :) And ladies, you know how it is... it's tough to feel pretty. Without bringing this entry down with my self-esteem issues... let's just look at the photo!
Photo by the AMAZING Wende Trew.
YAY! I updated my site to include it.
current mood:  happy
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-10 Temptations | Tempt me-
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| Monday, April 6th, 2009
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8:59 pm - A truly amazing experience
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The plane ride to Raleigh was short and uneventful. Seemed silly to take a 50 minute flight, but it sure beats driving 8 hours by myself!
Some of the girls picked me p and we had lunch and did a bit of prop shopping. I scored a nice blanket and talked myself out of getting a gorgeous basket for a newborn -- it wouldn't fit in my suitcase. Then we went back to Wende's house/studio to set up for some newborn shots, general hanging out and talking about histograms, TTL vs manual flash, and some photoshop tricks. I was in heaven.
Went to bed around 2, got up at 7. We were on location by 9:30 I think? Shot a family of 5, did groups, and different combos of the girls... we were in a nice field with tall grass/weeds/whatever, and it was really pretty. Ticks galore, though. The girls changed into pettiskirts and we gave them some brightly colored lollipops and shot some more. Then we broke for lunch.
We met back up downtown (ha, that's funny... it wasn't in Raleigh, but a more country, smaller town... downtown was one street!) to shoot some urban senior (high school, not old people) and that was AWESOME. I am so ready to do similar stuff in Fell's Point, and maybe Havre de Grace, too. Gotta find some seniors, first...
We shot til sunset and got some silouette shots against the sunset, too, which was nice. Gathered back at Wende's again for more photoshop talk, to watch some basketball game (not that I paid attention), etc. We chatted on Skype to some of the other girls that couldn't make it, too. skype is awesome. I think I am going to get it.
After some tick removal on some of the girls I was in bed around 1 I think? Back up at 7 and out the door to drop one girl off at the airport (so sad!) and then back downtown by 10 to do a bridal/trash the dress session. This one was my fav! The model was GORGEOUS, her dress and shoes were awesome. And she was so willing and patient with all of our crazy and uncomfortable poses.
We had a delicious lunch and gathered back at Wende's for more photoshop talk. I learned how to make fake lipstick, lol.
Then I had to go to the airport. I hated leaving. It was nice to see Andy and Kaylee again but I had a GREAT time! I shot about 28GB of images. Editing a few at a time now.
This was the first time I was with a group of people and can genuinely say I truly liked EVERYONE. We all got along right away, I wasn't even shy at first! It was an amazing experience. I learned a TON! I can't wait to see all the edited photos, too.
current mood: happy
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| Wednesday, April 1st, 2009
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10:45 pm - I forgot!
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I forgot to mention the other awesome thing! Im' flying out to Raleigh NC friday morning for a weekend long workshop with my kick-ass photography mentor, Wende Trew! She's having a bunch of her mentees over for the weekend where we will be shooting nonstop and learning a ton. I fly home Sunday night. I'm beside myself with giddiness. :)
current mood:  ecstatic
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9:59 pm - stalling
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I am supposed to be finishing a newborn session but I am unmotivated so I am posting to LJ instead. don't worry, it'll be done before I go to bed.
So this has been exciting times! I think I already talked about my work hanging in the Baltimore Birth Center. Well, its also going to be hanging in Kelly's Hair Design in Bel Air! I asked about setting out my marketing card and one thing led to another and now I am going to be photographing their children, making large prints, and decorating their "image areas" aka, shampoo area, etc... where people will definitely be sitting and looking. I LOVE Kelly and her salon. I've been going there since 2003, when I was looking for places to have my hair trial for my wedding. They were the nicest to me, so I went with them. It was brand new, Kelly had just taken it over, so when I asked about packages to get all my bridesmaid's + me + my mom's hair and makeup done, it didnt seem like stuff was already set up for it... but she worked with me, we got a great deal AND they bought us all lunch! Seriously, she showed up with a party tray from Quiznos and it was amazing (and a good idea, we arrived at 10:30am, went straight to the church afterwards at 3:30 (it takes awhile to do hair and makeup for 7 people), and didn't have dinner until 8ish. Cassandra over there does my hair and I love her so much.
So then I was at the daily Grind in Fells during my weekend getaway (which was amazing) and saw a sign about artists hanging their work-- I am going to see about hanging some photographs there, too. Probably more of my fine art stuff instead of portraiture. We'll see.
Now.... now I just need some clients. LOL. Gotta pay for all these displays SOMEhow. I also sent in a query to a new toy store in bel air. Worst they can say is no, right? I'm trying to grow a pair as you can see and stop being so timid.
OH! While I was downtown last weekend I had the most AMAZING pie from a pie shop called "Dangerously Delicious"... its in Federal Hill and let me tell you the name is TRUE. It was fantastic. Their logo is a pie done as a skull and crossbones. I love it! Anyway, the pie was called The Baltimore Bomb. It was made of... are you ready for this? BERGER COOKIES and CUSTARD! Sex in my MOUTH. I'm salivating just thinking about it.
Ok, back to my editing. :)
current mood:  accomplished
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